Rewriting The Stars

The lies can't go on any longer. The love can't be faked anymore. I'm not perfect and I don't love you. I don't want to be alone but I never intended to go this far. I'm fucked up, but I'm sorry I hurt you. You didn't deserve that. But you needed to know.

Why is there so many songs about "true love" and "soul mates" but next to no songs about finding and mending yourself?  Self love is so much more important than "soul mates"  You can be your own true love. Why can't they make that a topic of a song?

I want to go home,  but I don't know where that is anymore. It's not where I stay the night. It's not at my parent's home. It's not in his arms. Where is it?

"I love you," he said. I smile at him in thanks, not replying. Confusion colors his face as he wonders why I don't return the sentiment as I have before. He voices he concern, "Why don't you say it back?" "How can I tell you that if I don't truly believe in love? I won't lie to you like that," I tell him, hoping he'll understand-hoping he won't be mad.