Pain of a Free Heart

The thudding in my chest

Increasing,

Getting louder and more urgent

Whenever you're around

Whenever you touch me.

My heart must like you,

It seems to try

To escape to you when you're near.

It gets nervous and skips a beat,

Though my brain is telling it no.

My heart-

How it pains me

Whenever you go,

Whenever I realize I can't have you.

Is this pain what it's like to feel again?

Is this what it feels like to let my walls down again?

Is this what it's like to let my heart free from its prison once again?

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"I'll Be There"

Everyone always says "If you ever need me, I'll be there." But when I do need someone, when I crying my eyes out in the corner thinking of bringing the blade out once again, when I can't find the motivation to get out of bed, when nothing feels right and all I want to do is cry and have someone tell me it's okay, nobody's there. Never. So how am I supposed to believe you when you say "Trust me, I'll be there no matter what. All you have to do is call.", but when I do call, you're busy or ignore the ringing? How am I supposed to tell you when something is wrong when you never listen for the goddamn ringing?

Everything I Want

You are my everything. Don't say that I'm just one of your many others. Not when I have ripped my heart out of my chest and put it in your hands after hiding it behind miles of concrete walls for so long. Don't tell me I'm replaceable when you're the only person I want, when you're all I see. Please please don't tell me that I love you more than you love me. I can't handle that again... You are my everything Please say I'm your everything, too...

Last Summer

Do you remember last summer when we explored parts of the city we grew up in but never saw? When we had picnics in the park looking for faeries under the mushrooms and danced in the suns rays, oblivious to the people watching? When we went swimming in the sweltering heat? The cold refreshing water and the smell on sunscreen. The snowcone battle that you won by pushing me into the pool. When we kissed goodbye on the roof of the tallest building in our city before leaving our separate way? Do you remember the tears and our embrace neither of us wanted to end? Do you remember the salty lips and desperate eyes? Do you remember how you promised to love me forever? Forever is over and done- ripped apart by your tongue. Makes me wonder how this summer will be. It'll be hard to compare to the adventures and love of the one before.

Rewriting The Stars

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