Things You Should Know

CM,

Things you should probably know if you love me:

I'm messed up and complicated and I have many problems. I will keep them from you and you will be pissed when you find out that I hid them from you.

You won't be able to put up with me or my issues at times. Hell I barely can and it's mine.

I will break your heart multiple times. Because I don't know how to stay happy.

You will get hurt loving me no matter what.

Though I will hurt you I will never let you go without fight. I made that mistake once and it's never going to happen again.

I love you. I love you so much

but I don't deserve anyone as perfect as you.

Love,

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