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For You


I want to be sane for you
not a whack-job 
with a million things wrong 
with her mind.
I want to be skinny for you,
instead of being a whale.
I want to be beautiful for you,
so you won't want anybody else.
I want to be perfect for you,
because you deserve the best.
I want you to be proud of me
for getting better
and staying strong
even if it's not the way you want.
I want you to love me
as much as I hate myself,
which is a lot right now.

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