Dream of Love Lost

His arms wrap around a girl's waist.

They smile brightly at each other.

He bends down and presses his dark, full lips

to her pale ones.

Happiness exudes from them as they embrace.

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I wake up in a cold sweat.

The same dream, days in a row.

I can't get him out of my head, I miss him so much.

I roll over into the arms of a guy I vaguely know.

He's still sleeping, his bare chest peeking out from the sheets.

I get up quietly and grab my clothes. I dress and walk out into the cold wind.

The sweat on my skin from tonight's activities,

chilling me even more so with the wind.

The moon is out and full.

I think about him and if he's asleep with the girl he loves.

I hope he is.

At least, then, he's happy.

One of us deserves to be,

even if it's not me.

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